that chick

i just have to put this here.

mariah's new album tentatively entitled, "That Chick", drops april 1, 2008. the first single will hit airwaves january 29. reviews from selected VIPs who got the chance to hear it first are all positive. artists who worked with her in the album include T-Pain, Will.I.Am and Damian Marley.

so there, really excited.

what am i doing?

how i wish i could make things easier for you
but you wouldn't let me
oh crap... this is so pathetic!

****: anu ba tlga habol mu saken?
me: uhm... i think i like you...
****: aww... walang kagusto-gusto saken.
me: akala mu lang yun.
****: sasabihin ko na ha? err... i don't see us turning into something more than what we are right now.
me: T_T *(nightmare)

ansakit. 'lam mu ba yun? haay... as if you would care.T_T
anu ba 'to. antagal na nito ah...
i know i could never be him - your j**e.
but could you at least give me a chance? *sigh.
what am i doing? crap!

UP @ 100: Ang Galing Mo!

“Narito kami’t nagpupugay sa unibersidad ng aming buhay…” *lalala.

These are some lines from the theme song of UP’s centenary. The line “UP Ang Galing Mo”, which is one of the celebration’s popular slogans, capped it. The song is sure to linger not only in the ears, but more so in the hearts of those alumni who attended the kick-off ceremony, especially the younger ones (like me… lol), since both melody and lyrics were able to capture the attitude and the spirit that makes one a proud UP alumnus. It sounded pretty much like any OPM rock song heard on the radio (which was cool), but it was the words which surely made the alumni look back on those years of hard work and fun they had in the university. The opening event was held in front of the Quezon Hall. Two of the activities which I thought were cool were the showering of confetti and balloons from the helicopter which was hovering over the venue (while the program was about to start), and the daredevil stunts skydivers bearing emblems of the different UP campuses did up in the air. The latter specifically left me in amazement. Imagine watching them like tiny dots up in the sky later to see them come alive with their colourful parachutes landing in an area at the side of the University Avenue! Whew! Haha… Astig! Another thing other people did probably appreciate was the lighting and relay of 100 torches carried by prominent alumni and students (like Ryan Cayabyab and that 100 year-old alumnus who was an engineer) of the university around the Academic Oval. President Roman mentioned in her speech that the lighting of the torch was a symbolism of the university’s “desire for knowledge” – a principle in which the institution is highly built on. She further explained that the cauldron represents “Excellence, Service, and Leadership” – three things which the university has been an example of, and which it aims to instill in the lives of each of its students. The event was, without doubt, monumental for it recaptured UP’s glorious moments – most important probably, that one of taking its part in the country’s contemporary history by producing some of her best, productive, and outstanding citizens. Indeed, enough reasons for me to sing “UP Naming Mahal” with pride!

"could've beens" without UP

It’s the University of the Philippines’ kick-off party for its Centennial celebration tomorrow! I am pretty excited! Somebody posted a list of what would transpire during the event and I must admit it convinced me to consider attending it! Sent txt messages to everyone – asked them to accompany me. Quite a few responded with a “yes” (just a while ago) so I guess I’m now really set for it! Haha. I’ll be proud Isko this time around! Not that I’ve never been. Just that I wasn’t the typical one during college. Never attended rallies (tuition increase, cha-cha, etc…), ate just wherever most of the time (by this I mean in carinderias – no one would accompany me), and the like. Name it – haven’t been there! When most students were clamouring about UP’s privatization, we were singing our hearts out in Rob’s videoke rooms and playing at its arcade. What!? That was more enjoyable for us! Lol. Maybe that was one thing. Should I blame this behavior on my having been to the Manila campus instead of the one in Diliman? Guess that’s pretty much valid. How on earth could you resist the lure of a mall located merely 10 meters away from where your college was? Get my point? Now tell me what would one do when he gets at least a 3-hour break from classes when movies like LOTR and Potter could be viewed a few steps away? Okay… I’m ranting. Rob gave us this sort of replacement for the whole Sunken Garden, Shopping or Ikot experience! Laban kayo? Haha. Just kidding… One thing that I’ve never told everyone though was my being grateful to have studied in UP. I am very thankful to God that my parents’ at most 8 thousand every semester got me to receive the best education in town! Imagine that! Truth is, I don’t know what could’ve happened to me did I not pass UPCAT! Seriously! Thank you UP! You saved my life, and saved my parents' ass from paying what could’ve been thousands for tuition! Lol. I’ma cheer for you tomorrow!

UNIBERSIDAD NG PILIPINAS! *cheers.

high

*giggles.

It’s thrilling to finally get a chance to see how you look like (even though just in a photo) after a long while. Has it been ten years already? Oh my gosh! Haha. For the longest time, my only image of you was when we were in high. Shet! Ang corny ko! Loser! I’ma crush myself! Amp! Tama na nga…

.

“It’s hard to fall in love with someone whom you made your priority only to realize you are just an option.”

- my friend Karol

* intriguing cartoon right there, huh?! haha.

seashore

Memories from a boy’s vulnerable teenage years seem to haunt him
Images of a sunny outing on a seashore want to be recaptured in his eyes
Boys and girls enjoying the waters, some of them playing on the sand
Balls flying to and fro, the sound of guitars and songs ruling the air
Everybody seemed happy, ignoring the fact that it would soon fade later that day
On one corner was this lost soul, unnoticed
Reluctant to his classmates’ invitation to indulge on the fun there was
He stood still
Wondered if that someone he unyieldingly loves feels the same way as he does
He stood some more
Waited patiently
Prayed to God a million times: “Please this time, Lord.”

If only she knew how that moment almost tore and rip into pieces the minute remnants of his hanging spirit
Would she at least for the smallest chances notice and approach him?
Offer some time to talk? - To walk? – At least?

Years have gone by
Yet every time he gets to pass by that seashore
His eyes get teary
His heart throbs in a unique rhythm as if specifically engineered for that scene
And he couldn’t stop thinking
Uttering to himself

“I hope you did.”

sa may tabing ilog

this was supposed to be a red/green party! kaso may mga pasaway! haha.

at baket hinde ako ang best dressed!? haha. peace marco!

taken during our barkada christmas partee pala december 25, 2007. this, for me, was the best shot taken. sayang. wala si rossan! siya kase kumuha.

the place right there is overlooking a river. ilog na agad sa likod ng inuupuan naming yan.

sayang madameng wla! haay... sana madame tayo next year.

deja vu

It’s really quite surreal to find yourself in a position where something familiar which had happened to you in the past is again facing you. Déjà vu – whatever! Uhm… This one is quite but not entirely like it.

I met these two boys a couple of months ago and I found myself amused at how time quickly passed – one moment I was this ambitious kid with idealistic dreams and plans for himself. Then suddenly, I become this struggling young adult in his never-ending quest for independence, love, and stability. XD

I remember some thoughts running through my 12-year old immature brain when I was in 1st year high. As some of you may know, I studied high in the seminary. This “first time away from home” experience brought me some challenges and questions I never imagined myself facing and bothering me. First taste of reality - maybe… A lot of things had happened, which when I think of now, were quite too much for a vulnerable, lost, and lonely kid who thought himself of as a misfit, to handle - a kid who was trying everything just to be in a clique, desperate to feel some sense of belongingness, to be welcomed. Clearly, I was a sponge – absorbing anything which I thought was cool - imbibing them.

IT'S HARD TO BE ON THE OUTSIDE. Trust me.

It was as if life quickly removed the innocence in me. I learned a bunch of things little ones shouldn’t be aware of.

But through it all, I have no regrets even when things presented themselves earlier than they should have. These experiences armoured me with some valuable lessons - that of continuity in all things - with life, with dreams, and most importantly, with growing up. Though it was life’s bitter reality to endure the nightmares at first, it was however, those very same lessons that made it bearable.

As for those boys, I’m just extremely thrilled to have met and talked with them. I saw in their eyes and smile the very fragile soul which made me taste what life was and grow up unexpectedly.

Oh life… Parang kailan lang… *hums. Take care you two. :)