yesterday

Yesterday,

All my troubles seemed so far away,

Now it looks as though they're here to stay,

Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be,

There's a shadow hanging over me,

Oh, yesterday came suddenly.

Yesterday,

Love was such an easy game to play,

Now I need a place to hide away,

Oh, I believe in yesterday.

syesha's rendition of this song on IDOL has this aftermath on me. hers was a deeply melancholic yet heartfelt and moving one that it almost left me to tears. lol. ^_^

anyway, seeing justy and lester was like seeing myself during my high school years. yeah, makes me realize how time quickly passed. once i was this carefree (careless even) teenager, and now i am this person i am right now. whaaa! i may write a thousand words here but i'm pretty sure they won't compensate this feeling of yearning to experience for just a moment and go back in the nick of time to those years filled with mixed emotions and life-enriching events. haha. i miss that life. (can't believe i'm writing this. lol.) it was undeniably a period in my life that had this huge part on who and what i am. *sigh.

oh yeah... YESTERDAY... *hum.

i partee

i had fun last saturday night! wuhoo! my friend em got us on ascend's guest list. how cool is that!? second time there, this time we were with mark. nice! just when i thought nothing special would happen on my birthday! haha. thanks em! i owe you bigtime! smiles to mark for the company as well.

hope

it's my birthday tomorrow and i'm not even sure if i feel like celebrating. last year was just an ordinary day (as always). i don't even know if i would still cling to the minute hope that making wishes and blowing candles could bring me to get the things that i wanted. sad. yeah. not to mention the fact that i don't really know what to want anymore. hope, is one word, that i'm afraid would vanish from my system pretty soon. when everything you had hoped and prayed for wasn't noticed, you succumb to this feeling of being trapped inside something so massive you don't have full knowledge of and which you could hardly overcome. you want to get to the other side of the world you are locked in yet you are already numb to even attempt hoping. wanting to see what lies beyond bugs you but it alone can't get you there. sad to say, you're stuck. you can't move. it's hard to breathe. so what you do? you just close your eyes and let the events take their course since they say "everything happens for a reason". you end up being helpless.

for whatever making wishes is worth, i just wish that my heart would still find place for something called hope. and in this birthday, i hope that's gonna happen.

gossip girl

xoxo. haha. gossip girl here. lol. uhm.. let's talk about the show... it's been a while since i got hooked on something which i thought was flaming hot in a lot of ways. you see... people may talk about tv shows and rate if it's a thumb's up or not based on various points. we may look at it in an old-school kind of way - plot, characterization, scriptwriting, etc... or in a "poppish" high school manner - how good-looking the actors and actresses were, how each pair looked amazing, and so on. this show, i should say, (and this is just my opinion by the way), surprisingly bonded these two elements together and came up with a pop yet substantial thing that we now see on tv (or dvds at least). the characters represent different struggles and conflicts present in each of us - whether they be about love, friendship, following dreams, or relationships in general. it doesn't hurt though that these "struggling" individuals are so damn good-looking! lol. (see the pictures for yourselves!)

so if you're that traditional type who'd want some analysis on the different aspects making up a multimedia art, focus on the details. as for us (just kiddin'), feast on these pictures!

make it happen

I know life can be so tough
And you feel like giving up
But you must be strong
Baby just hold on
You'll never find the answers if you throw your life away
I used to feel the way you do
Still I have to keep going
Never knowing if I could take it
If I would make it through the night
I held on to my faith I struggled and I prayed
And now I've finally found my way

If you believe in yourself enough
And know what you want
You're gonna make it happen
And if you get down on your Knees at night
And pray to the lord
He's gonna make it happen

*inspiring lyrics, ayt? i just love this song! so bad it's kinda hard to live up to these words... *pray...

finding ne-yo (*huwoo.)

and so i got the chance to see ne-yo live last saturday. he was indeed amazing! he sounded just as great live. how i wish i have that same talent! haha. i must say he was the artist who sort of re-introduced r&b to my jive back when i occupied myself with listening to emo music. "because of you" was the song which made me appreciate the soul there was in this genre. anyway, lemme take you first a couple of years ago. heard about him sometime in 2005. college housemate jane was so into "so sick" that she kinda made the whole house listen to it. i thought it was a good song - nice jive, but just ok. for me, it was merely one of those songs played on the radio - nothing extraordinary. but when i heard " because of you" (someone i knew (arts) was playing it in his page), i was like "omg. this is superb! where the heck did he get this beat? and this saccharine humming (*huwoo) at the beginning and towards the end of the song?" this is a knock-out! lol. no other song sound as sweet, inviting, and uber danceable as it yet have this cute love song lyrics. it's actually a "guilty pleasure" to some people including me. haha. (i'm so strung out on you, can barely move, but i like it... and it's all BECAUSE OF YOU... *hums.) i have yet to ask people who wouldn't feel like dancing when the first beats of the song with ne-yo's "huwoo" humming starts playing. you know of someone? tell me.