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"When I first saw you I was afraid to talk to you. When I first talked to you, I was afraid to like you. When I liked you, I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you (thiiiiiiiiiis much) I'm afraid to lose you."

- some cute emo stuff I read somewhere.

wish

Feeling vulnerable again. I never thought I'd love you thiiiiiis much! Here i am for the nth time trying to cling to some microscopic possible trace of hope that this time would be different. Why would you do things that'd make me go wooooh but then just leave me hanging on some dead space?! Stop giving me false hopes. If you'll hurt me, have some decency to do it now. Please don't take advantage on the fact that I am so not in my elements when I'm around you. Seeing you rejoicing over your indifference towards me cuts and tears my heart apart. So if you'll go away (like all the others did), do it now. I know it'll hurt but I'm pretty sure I'll get used to it. I'm quite a religious fan of heartaches anyway.

Uhm. I still wish that you'd be my "falling star" though.

sexy at 38

came across these mariah photos on the net. wala lang. sexy at 38 years? why not!? haha. faye texted minutes after saying that she got married to a certain nick cannon who is 11 years her junior. wow! don't know yet if it's true. oh well... anu namang akin dun!? haha.

bought her e=mc2 cd pla the day it was released here. was at the mall at 10am - true to uber loyal fan stature! haha. it was in a site earlier that she went gold here after only 8 days. wow! that's 15, 000 copies sold! so ibig sabihin madame siyang fans dito? haha. anyway, her latest studio album is cool! a lot of thuggy ballads in the tradition of "we belong together". haha. the only thing i noticed though is that most of the songs (10/14 to be exact) from the album could be singles. really... there are a lot of nice tracks here compared to "the emancipation of mimi" though not all are superb - they're just right! the 10-million selling "emancipation" album offered really good singles but also gave quite a lot of mediocre tracks. that i think, is one major difference of the two albums. my current favorites on the new one are "cruise control" (where she does reggae-ish r&b with damian marley), "side effects" (where she talks vividly about her nightmare with ex-husband tommy mottola), and "i stay in love" (a cool thuggy love song). waaaay to go! elvis done! now go beat the beatles! haha.