happy holidays!

yihiy! :)

i'm going home tomorrow for the holidays! it's always this time of year that i look forward to the most - spending some time off and living the mellow, subdued province life even for just a couple of weeks. hope this time will be a blast!

just remembered something... i've never been a misa de gallo fan. haha. as much as i want to get up in the wee hours of early morning to heighten my spirituality, i really find it difficult to do. what makes it even more unbearable is the fact that my mother's not here to wake me up. haha.

though i missed attending them, i still would want to make wishes for the holidays. uhm... these things aren't new since they're the things that i'm actually praying for every night. i just wish good health for me and my family... and a long, happy, productive life for each one of us. though i may not be as showy with my feelings (sorry people... got a social skill problem in here) - i'm sure You know how much love i've planted and sown for them.

ok... enough drama.

this is the part where i'll be greeting everyone a "Merry christmas"! owel... it'll only be short since my melatonin supply has got to be replenished.

*to my classmates: Merry christmas! we've not seen each other for months! i miss you all! trust me. hehe... labas tayo sometime! thnx dana for the lantern parade company! hehe. as well as marj and joan for the paskuhan thing. though it was a disastrous event (for most people, including us! haha.), thank you still for the laughs we had that night!

*to my workmates: uhm... tsaka na gifts nyo! haha. happy holidays! enjoy tayo! let's treat ourselves this time around! haha.

*to my barkada: partee na 'to! green theme? haha. excited na ko sa 25th! sana masaya though a bulk of people will be missing due to some petty constraints (which i understand). hehe. so excited to see y'all!

*to my high school friends: reunion? ang hirap mag-organize ha! kita-kita na lang pagdating jan! i miss everyone! oi rec, tuloy tayo sa boracay?! please... haha. overnight ako sa house nyo! hahahaha. at matinding inuman na naman? i'd appreciate that! ^_^

did i miss anyone? hehe. basta "Merry christmas" to all of us!

God bless!

barkada collage

i love these people. ==> ang aming barkada.

known them since we were tiny tots! haha.

made this collage as background for our christmas partee invitation!

L-R, rows starting from above

(1st): jebb, marco, marianne, syde

(2nd): sol, mechelle, von, pong-pong, charlotte, dee

(3rd): mark, rossan, dreyfuss, edith

a rainbow appears

during life's misfortunes, if we ponder hard enough, we see blessings hidden from our oftentimes neglectful eyes. just like a magnificent rainbow, which appears after a tumultuous storm.

uhm... there are quite a lot of things that i've learned, so they say, the hard way, these past months. *and most, if not all of them, because of you ****.

i remember there was this nice sms message circulating sometime in august, which a friend told me, was lifted from one of paulo coehlo's novels. it said something like "if people want to be a part of your life, they'll make an effort to be in it". think hard people. i'm sure all of us have experienced this life's reality. no matter what you do... how hard you try. sometimes, you just can't get everybody to like you. yet don't be too hard on yourself, wallow in self-pity or adapt the drama of "bitterness". let's just put it this way... there are times when people simply could not play the role that you ask them to in your life. so it's up to you. seriously! would your life be happier if they'd just vanish from your story, disappearing into oblivion; or would you content yourself with them playing at least cameo roles in it? decide now.

*as for me, i'm still torn. but i thank you **** though for teaching me this lesson. *sigh. you know who you are. "seriously!" ==> (grey's fan? lol. izzie?) thanks (specially for saying it in such a straightforward way. sure it hurt a lot the first couple of months but now i appreciate it.) i'm happy for you. really. ^_^

i never saw it coming

Over You

-Chris Daughtry-

Now that it's all said and done,

I can't believe you were the one

To build me up and tear me down,

Like an old abandoned house.

What you said when you left

Just left me cold and out of breath.

I fell too far, was in way too deep.

Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.

I should've started running

A long, long time ago.

And I never thought I'd doubt you,

I'm better off without you

More than you, more than you know.

I'm slowly getting closure.

I guess it's really over.

I'm finally getting better.

And now I'm picking up the pieces.

I'm spending all of these years

Putting my heart back together.

'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,

I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,

Dragged the memories down the hall,

Packed your bags and walked away.

There was nothing I could say.

And when you slammed the front door shut,

A lot of others opened up,

So did my eyes so I could see

That you never were the best for me.

* it's the song that carries me through moments of drama nowadays. ^_^ it was the melody that caught my attention in july '06...around the time when they released "it's not over" and while i was nerve-wracked reviewing for the boards... looking at the lyrics right now gives me a different connection to the song. *sigh hell yeah, it makes me feel good! haha. *with a sense of vindication?! lol.