wish

Feeling vulnerable again. I never thought I'd love you thiiiiiis much! Here i am for the nth time trying to cling to some microscopic possible trace of hope that this time would be different. Why would you do things that'd make me go wooooh but then just leave me hanging on some dead space?! Stop giving me false hopes. If you'll hurt me, have some decency to do it now. Please don't take advantage on the fact that I am so not in my elements when I'm around you. Seeing you rejoicing over your indifference towards me cuts and tears my heart apart. So if you'll go away (like all the others did), do it now. I know it'll hurt but I'm pretty sure I'll get used to it. I'm quite a religious fan of heartaches anyway.

Uhm. I still wish that you'd be my "falling star" though.