hands

The past weeks have been gruesome. Starting 2008 proved to be an emotionally heart-wrenching game! I welcomed the year with never-ending uncertainty and doubt – as cyclic and eternal as that last digit! Lots of issues have been brought up which, I must admit, have played a colossal role in shaping my sanity nowadays. Asked a million times simple yet complicated words – “why?”, “again?”, and why me?” Uttered relentlessly phrases like “give me a break!”, “so what now?” Questions, which answers, I could not acquire kept on coming – forming this humungous pile – which I was afraid if swayed just a bit would take away the littlest hope faltering in my soul. Sure it is hard to be a fortress when deep inside of you is a crumbling spirit just as it is difficult for a building to stand tall when its foundation is shallow. I wanted to disappear – to free myself from whatever pain these things would afford me. Rebellion at some point was an escape – but I’m pretty sure we know just where that would lead us – to nothing. Hope I'll keep that myslef in mind. So what’s the point? Err… I’m getting there… lol. Just take a look at the picture above...

It's true what that someone said: "Once you doubt, you drown."